I hate conflict

I really hate conflict. I can disagree with people and have conversations with differing opinions, but conflict I hate. My body will react in many different ways all depending on what is going on. It can be as simple as butterflies in my stomach to a full on anxiety attack with me feeling like I am suffocating. Why do I hate conflict so much?

I don’t like to hurt people’s feelings and I don’t like mine to be hurt. I don’t like being put in the middle. Is it because it could result in hurt feelings? Is it because it could result in shouting? Screaming? Getting physical? Could I loose a friend? An associate that is a part of my life?

Why am I so afraid of these things. I can’t control how people feel. I can’t control how people react. I can only control myself. I have to realize not all people even people I love are meant to be on my airplane of life. They will board and depart all throughout my life. People are so wrapped up in their own feelings and their needs they don’t stop and think about how their actions and words make others feel. They don’t want to take responsibility for what they do but they want someone to be held accountable for what was done or said to them.

Stop and think before you speak. Stop and think before you act.

Your Royal Purple Queen!