I should be jumping for joy….

I should be jumping for joy. There are so many things going great in my life. For example my great-neice who was due to be born on the 16th of this month was a month and 16 days old. She’s doing amazingly well! She’s growing and thriving and so loved. My second oldest niece has finally gotten her son back. As of right now her ex is behaving and they will be going back to their 50/50 child custody arrangement. She hasn’t had him since before Halloween. I have a great new job that doesn’t cause me great anxiety and stress. I had a financial issue and I dealt with it. These are just anger things that are going great in my life yet I’m not jumping for joy. I am thanking God because I will always do that as I know all great things come through him. But I sit here and have no energy to get up and do anything. The past three days I have slept in very late despite having things that needed to be done. I could it here and say oh but Candy you are getting over a cold. Candy you are adjusting to your new work schedule. Candy you are on your period. I could probably find more reasons but I don’t need to becuase I think I have made my point. I just don’t get it. Why. Why am I like this? Why does depression get a hold of me like this? It’s the only thing I can think of. Oh to be able to be what is considered normal. Good night everyone. Remember to identify what you are feeling and give it its moment then let it go. We can’t move forward if we don’t do this. Identify it, examine it, let it go and make room for positive thinking and growth. Good night my friends! Stay positive! Your Royal Purple Queen!

Published by Candyce

I am a mid 40 year old woman who has dealt with depression and anxiety most of her life. I am married and the only baby I have is a 6 year old rottweiler fur baby. I have been a volunteer EMT/FF for 24 years.

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