Happy New Year!

Twenty-six minutes till the new year. I’ve just finished my second full day in my new job. I am liking it. I’m stumbling a little but I am making progress. My trainer is very patient and friendly. I’m off for three days and then we go back to the day shift. Still lots to learn. I am grateful for this experience. I am back in Annapolis. I’ve always wanted to be back there. It’s where I plan to stay.

I don’t want to make the same type of goals like all the others. My main goal is to be healthy. Healthy mentally, physically, and spiritually. Now there are many objectives that will have to be met to meet that goal. This is where the struggle comes into play. My anxiety speaks here. When I look at large problems with many issues I don’t know where to start. I struggle with knowing it may take me a while to finish the clean up/organizing of the situation. I struggle with being distracted. For example. Take a room with clothes, decorations, furniture, and various other things in it. Nothing is organized. Everything is just laying everywhere in piles. I will have a great desire to clean the room. I will even be able to envision what it will look like when done. Starting the process for me is very overwhelming. I don’t know where to start. When I do start I end up going from one thing to another without finishing what I started. I know I should ask for help. Sadly, I have in non-direct ways. I have even paid people for help. It doesn’t always turn out very well. So that is what I am trying to change in 2020. How I look at things and how I process it all.

Well it’s now twelve minutes to midnight. Happy New Years! May you realize how wonderful you are in your own unique way!!

Wishing you all the best! Your Royal Purple Queen, Candyce

Published by Candyce

I am a mid 40 year old woman who has dealt with depression and anxiety most of her life. I am married and the only baby I have is a 6 year old rottweiler fur baby. I have been a volunteer EMT/FF for 24 years.

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