My Head Is Hurting

It may or may not be emotional stress that is causing my head to pound. It may simply be my sinuses gearing up to create chaos as the holiday season glides to its pinnacle moment. Either way I sit here unable to concentrate on anyone thing for more than 60 seconds. Of course that voice I talked about yesterday is steadily yammering away about what needs to be done. Would Ibuprofen work or should I take a sinus medication in case that is what this truly is. Hey here’s a thought take a moment and meditate. Think positively for a minute.

I was sent an angel today. Today a debt was wiped clean. Needless to say it was unexpected. It was so appreciated and my love for this person poured out of me. I couldn’t control the feelings. I couldn’t stop them from running down my face. All I could say was thank you and I love you. I have had a hard time walking my path in life since I lost my mom in 2006 (13 years ago) but today I realized I was given an adoptive mom who is also a best friend. An adoptive family that means the world to me. They don’t replace my family in any way but God saw I was in need. He saw I was an orphan who was lost and needed guidance. He saw I needed the compassion and encouragement. As I type this he as given that to me in some other ways.

Tomorrow I have the opportunity to be on a podcast for Brave Fitness. I will post the links for it when I have them. I get to talk about my weight loss journey. One of the things I will be able to say that has helped me was finding a trainer that could show me compassion while teaching what I needed to be healthy. He doesn’t judge me. He accepts me for me and all my BS. I truly am blessed in many ways.

The voices have quieted. The pain has subsided for the most part. Hmm guess talking it out does work. Five more wake ups and its Christmas. Crap here come the voices.

Published by Candyce

I am a mid 40 year old woman who has dealt with depression and anxiety most of her life. I am married and the only baby I have is a 6 year old rottweiler fur baby. I have been a volunteer EMT/FF for 24 years.

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